Recently, the more time I spend around horses, the less I want one.
The more I ride, the more I want to do something with it and compete but everyone know’s you can’t do that unless you have a horse, lots of money and contacts. I have none of that and the more time I spend with them, the more I get angry at my parents for not doing this for me.
I know it’s not their fault, honestly. They couldn’t know I’d become so in love with horses and riding, but I have and now it’s too late to do anything with it. Even if I get a horse at the end of the year, I’ll never be able to catch up to the standard I would have been at if it had happened a few years ago.
I’m scared that actually owning a horse will just be a crappy reminder that I can’t do anything with him/her.
